God, you have been good. Very good indeed.

Thank God for year 2005. For all the things & people you have brought into my life. Because of You, life become meaningful & beautiful.

I have written a list of God's blessing in year 2005 in my nice new journal book. =)

Read others' blogs & know that God has been good to many people! =)

Who can claim to be faithful?

Only God's faithfulness last eternity.
God's love endureth forever.

I find something grow in me again.

Love.

God's love fill my heart & it's so easy to love people again.

It's only when God'd love so filled our heart that we are able to love people. =)

When I look at everyone whereever I am now, I am able to see them with God's love.

I wanna pray more than ever again. I wanna pray for anyone in the train, on the bus, people who sit beside me, stand beside me, people who doesn't have the most likeable face...etc.

Mother Teresa once said that many people in our world today suffer from a disease.

And that disease is not cancer, it is loneliness.

Everyone craves for love, a touch from someone, an encouraging word, appreciation.

I was observing the people around me in train for the past few days & it's a sad fact that most of them doesn't look happy.

There is fatigue that comes from stressful work, weary faces, lonely faces, hopelessness..etc.

Seldom can I find a face that is happy.

I was wondering if everyone starts to love more, smile more, care more, will I see more happy faces? I bet so!

Lord, help me smile more. Even to strangers, without the fear of thinking what they may thought of me. =)

Today I'm happy even though I didn't do much. I rested again at home, tidied up my stuffs, do some work at home. I really like my job. I can choose when to work & when to rest. But I promise to work much harder next year! =)

I will write my new year resolutions tomorrow morning after breakfast with hao peng you.
I must do so before new year 2006! And i'm so thankful that I went to church today. God has prepared in my heart what to expect & envision for year 2006.

Expecting something great. Expect greater exploits.

Thank you Lord!

I have so much to write and I guess i'm procastinating again!
Christmas was over and we are entering into the new year soon!
There are still a dozen things I wanna do before the new year, and one of the most important is to write my new year resolutions.

I'm suppose to be staying at home today to rest & think about them. But here I am.

I haven't started writing mine.

This year Christmas is cool. I went to Orchard to be with the crowd again on Christmas' s eve. :)
Had a great time. Christmas party with my family on Christmas day and christmas party with my secondary school friends on boxing day. =)
I thoroughly enjoyed every moments with all of them! =)

I have another minute here & I wanna write about something unpleasant again.

2 days ago, I received a call from Jeremy. He told me to cancel one of my clients' plan. I was.. "why?"

"'cos he passed away." was the answer.

"HUH????????"

My heart dropped for a second. Fabrian is a nice guy.

I came to know him in June this year during a roadshow.

Soon, he became my client & a friend. He is only 23 years old, young & ambitious. From the few conservations with him, I know he is a family guy & though young, he has plans for marriage & really wanted to start a family soon.

He was so nice that he refered his friends to me. And this is how I got to know Jeremy, who eventually become my client & friend too.

I remembered on my first appointment with Fabrian, i told him about the bike accident that happened to my secondary school friend recently this year. He knows the importance of getting a life insurance & really wanted to get one for himself.

I also remembered sharing Christ with him that day. I hope he had prayed in his heart.

However, he met with an accident in July & has to postponed his plan of getting one.
Months after months, he told me he will .. start a plan next month.

I felt sorry that he did not commit to get the life insurance before he passed away. Just last week, he told me that he will really commit to getting one next month.

Just attended his wake & saw him for the last time.

Fabrian, I thank you for your fun-loving character & thoughtfulness towards me.
You will always be remembered by all your friends & family.

Im back. Yes! I'm back for more than 10 days!
Still not in the working mood. Thank God that He has placed many people in my life just to help me in my career. Haven't been calling up people but people just call me up for plans. Thank God!

Besides that, I have so much to write.

Aceh, Banda Aceh, this trip has really been a life experience for me.

One week is just nice. I love this trip, my team members (gosh, they all so cute!), the people there, the songs.. just that I really miss my bathroom back home. :p

There, we have to bath with yellowish- brownish water from a well like container in the bathroom. Also, we have to brush our teeth with mineral water. Hitting mosquitoes become one of our favorite past times. :)

I really think any Singaporeans should visit & even volunteer in such countries/town one of these days.. it brings us back to basics. Back to our simple lifestyle.

One of the things I brought home with me is the appreciation of simplicity.

On the route back to Singapore, the thought of our stressful lifestyle here reallys....

For a moment, I thought that life should be so simple. Simple with less expectations bring greater joy & contentment.

I came back to Singapore with a heart wanting to stop worrying about the many things in life. (career, goals, ...etc)

While some people are thinking of committing sucide here in Singapore just because of BGR problem or fail to do well in exams, people in Indonesia are thinking of how to survive another day without shelter. And they are so contented to just have some food & a tent to stay in.

Shouldn't we be more grateful for the things we have now and stop worrying about the unnecessaries in life?

After a mere 12 days of staying in Singapore again, I'm beginning to start worrying about my career & goals in life again. The people we interact with somehow contribute to how we think. When everyone is striving hard to succeed in life, (monetary sense, to be financially independant one day.. etc) somehow you will be force to think likewise.

well well, yes, it's important to do well in whatever we are doing. So Shirley, wake up & really work hard for your goals again! :)

Hmm, i'm not worrying. I'm just wanting to do well in life, & at the same time, appreciating the people in my life & balancing my life with the right priorities.

back to aceh....

I'm really touched by my team members as I can really see Jesus in them. Simple faith, simple love for people. :)
Many times, people wonder why & how we know Jesus is real.

Jesus can be felt & seen in people's lives. When we get close enough to someone, we become like that person. When a Christian get close to Jesus, Jesus can be seen in them.

On the last day before we leave for SIngapore, we had the priviledge to shop at Medan largest hypermart that is opened for only a few days. Right at the corner, I spotted a VCD shop. As i walked closer to it, I realised that they are playing Mandarin Christian songs & it's my favorite Mandarin Christian Pastor Lin Yi Zong concert disc!
Wow, Indonesia may be the largest Muslim nation, but Christianity is no longer a "foreign word" there. Many people are listening to Christian music & they have Bashasa Indonesia Chrisian songs too! And they are very very nice!!!
I bought the discs back home!

While listening to those Malays worshipping Jesus & seeing them loving Jesus so much, i teared. Our God is really different. Our God is love. And in Him, we find love & we are loved! Just being in the presence of God satisfies my soul so much... God, thank you for sending Jesus to die for us. Thank you Lord!

04 Dec - 10 Dec

I'm going to Aceh!!!
Yes, I'm going later... have to wake up at 5am.

Excited! yeah! Pray that it will be a fruitful trip!
Thank you Jesus!