Ha... I wrote so much about accomplishing stuffs in my previous blog... ended up.. i stayed in my house till 6pm before rushing to Bishan to meet up with Cai.

I was stressed up today! 'cos i just realise that some of my important cases didn't pass through because of some problems... wah.. its month end and i must meet my target! Today is actually the last day for submission. Wah, haven feel so stress for quite a while and i was crying out to God to help me! "Help me, Lord!"

SO i spend the whole afternoon thinking of how to solve this problem.

I tried hard to stay calm & trust in the Lord. My boss is very nice and offer to help me settle the problem with the underwriter tomorrow. Pray that everything will turn out fine. I know it will... because God will help me!

Yah.. still have a thing not solve... Im praying for God's favor and will write on it soon when God answer my prayer.

Tomorrow will be a good day!

Today I have no appointment till 7pm. I am feeling so free now and suddenly just thought of just going out there to talk to different people. My job is to talk to people mah. But if i dont bring a thing, what if they really want to listen more, how to share without paper & pen? Hmm... confused. Okay, guess I really have to bring all my things out! I will go Woodlands first, then Orchard then go back to Bishan to meet ah Cai! :)
Then rush back Sembawang for Leadership cell. Then wait for KC to come and fetch me. Perfume from Italty and a song from Taiwan. haaaa.... so nice.

Feeling so free now. Next month, I will work really hard! Have to work hard for Christmas!!!
Christmas is coming!!! Time really flies!!! wahhh.... but it's my favorite season of the year!!! Hot Coco and Cold weather!!! Hmm.... nice! :) Presents and cards!!!! Wow!!!

Yes!!! I will work very hard!!! I want to save for trip to Taiwan to fulfill my younger brother's little wish. Have to sponser my dad too!!! Ai yo.... have to work hard!!!

Yes Lord, grant me strength for this day I pray. Strength and joy and peace & wisdom!! Thank you Lord for you give generously to all without finding fault! Amen!!!

Today met up with Elva dear, Sarah & Jing....
Finally met up with SSE again.. miss them lor.. haven been "38" for quite some times... ahahhaa
Faint... i am really eating too much these days.... oh..... i actually gained 2 kg!!!!!!!! Faint... must go exercise soon soon soon!!!!!!!! jogging!!!! wahhh.... this Sat wedding!!! Must lose weight before Sat!! Yes, I must do it!!!

We were discussing about diamond, girl's best friend. I just bought my first diamond ring!!! But the diamond really really tiny!!! but its okay!!! At least it's mine!!! hahaaa.... couldnt stop lookin at it for some time. Diamonds are really a girl thing that when im at 24 years this year... then i realise it! Elva is commenting on it too.. we were like "diamonds?? what so special about them?" last time when we younger... ahaha.....

Today I wasn't very happy actually... 'cos one client never turn up. Never mind, tomorrow will be a better day!!

Okay!!! Must sleep now and wake up early tmr!!
Pray that God's peace, joy and love be with you always!! Amen!

For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves, God has a positive answer for it:

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)

Beauty & the beast...
one of my fav. cartoon... I watched it twice on movie when I was in Sec.2.
The radio just played this song.. bring me back to my dreamland.

Im a fairytale gal... always dreaming of my prince to come fetch me to a faraway land and stay happily ever after!

Ha... hmm... just saw Sum's blog... she s engaged with Mel!
They look really compatible and heaven made couple.
So happy for them!!!.....

...........................................when is my turn?

Sometimes, I will think... nah, it's okay... even if I were to stay single... I will be fine & happy in life...

True.... but if I can find my life partner... wow... that s be great too... hhahaa.... but where is he? ops... what nonsense am i writing? Probably it's night time and Im getting emotional again... hahhaaa......

I believe he will come... one day... :p

....... I choose to praise the Lord and trust in His ways!
His ways are "yes" & "Amen"!!!

I just received some negative news. But I choose to trust in the Lord that all things will work out for good for those who love Him. Hallejulah!!!!

These days are my roadshows. Tiring yet fun. Lord, I commit today & tomorrow into your hands. Pray for favor with every person I met! I pray that I will be able to close deals today! Thank you Lord.

I pray that my friends will be able to make it for "Sliver Rain" concert today! Lord, bring them!

Jesus, have your way.

im okay now. Hope anyone who read my previous blog will not be upset by it.
Life still goes on...

I realise that I have been eating supper too much these days... really feeling so fat! i told myself i cant eat supper for the next 3 months!!! Wahh.... hope i can endure. anyway, it's not good for health. =)

I also realise that I need to show more concern/gratitude to my bosses and colleagues. My bosses have been very kind to me.. but I haven even buy any small gifts for them yet. Christmas is coming right? heehhh...

Been around many places in Singapore lately.. thanks to Desmon who always drive me around else I will always be a mountain teetle.

Lantern festival... I went to my brother's place & celebrated with them. My nephew, Benji & ah Kai.... sooo cute!!! My brother's place very nice... hope i will have a house of my own soon. =)
with all the dolphins.... hahhaa....

I have to meet more people now... the speed that Im going is not satisfactory...
So that means I have to call up more people!!! Haven been people lately... Yah... must ganbatte ne!!! You can do it, Shirley!!!

I was devastated today.

12.30am, i received a message from my boss.

He told me that one of my colleagues, he........ hung himself in his bedroon the morning..

he was dead.

.........................

I was shocked...

A young promising man, always teaching me about investments.

only 27 years old...

What could have caused it?

Galfriend? shares?

....................

I was really speechless........

Even though I wasnt exactly close to him....

I cried the first thing I woke up this morning.

.............

I always have this intense mixed feeling of sadness and anger when it comes to knowing the fact that someone actually commit suicide.

Sad that at that point, no one can he turn to. A precious live is destroyed.


..............

ALL PROBLEM CAN BE SOLVED!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN! NOTHING IS PERMANENT...

including our problems.... they come they go.....

ANGRY with satan..........

Usually for people with sucidal thoughts... there is a small voice (from idiot satan) telling you that it's hopeless... just die... and everything can be solved.

IDIOT!!! get lost in the name of JESUS!

I had that before... i know.

please... i plead anyone who know me/ dun know me... to come to me if you have sucidal thoughts.

Give me a chance to share with you how to overcome.


lastly, I was so motivated to share Christ with everyone i know now.
LOrd, do not let anyone who pass by my path to not know Christ.

Of cos, as Christians, we all believe that by knowing Christ, you can be with God eternally.
That is to be in heaven. It is the strongest motivation for any Christian to share with you about Christ, I believe.

I don't care if you are to scold me....

But here I want to share Christ again.

God loves you so much that He sent His only beloved son, Jesus Christ to die for your sins.
Whoever believe in Him in his heart and profess him shall be saved!

Say this prayer if you believe with your heart. (Don't hesitate, just believe and take the first step.)

"Father God, Im sorry for all my sins.
Sorry for not believing in you in the past.
Please come into my heart now as I believe in you.
Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross for my sin.
Guide me and teach me in all ways.
Help me to love you back as I know You love me so much.
Thank you Lord.
I want to follow You all the days of my lives."

I have prayed for every single one of you who have said the prayer above.
Just share with me if you have said k.
My email: delight_shirley@yahoo.com.sg

God bless!!!!

hair so messy! dun care!! yipee... the sea!

east coast park!!

these days really mood swing alot...i can feel really excited and happy at some times then just suddenly feel very moody and sian. Hmm...so weird that I decided to give myself one day break to go the beach to relax. Have always wanted to go to the beach... and finally fulfilled my wish. However, still have to rush back for cell. Really have to find one good day to really enjoy myself at the beach!

:) hheheee.... life is good.
Today I woke up slightly later at 10.45am and I feel my bodyache again!!!
wahhhh... think the lesser I sleep, the better I would feel. Hahhaaa....
Okay!!! Must make sure I sleep 6 hours everyday then.

Oh... actually wanted to write about my first manicure experience.
Quite fun... at PINC!
Bought a discount card from this young guy, promoter for PINC.

Did a Parrafin Wax HAnd treatment and express manicure, all at $30.
The parrafin wax treatment is okay, but i feel it's abit expensive. $25.
20 min treatment.

The manicure session is okay too. I think its better than other shop 'cos i always see people doing their manicure sitting on uncomfortable chairs... for PINC, i get to sit on comfortable couch. :)

Today, i have to go back to office. So far!! hhahaaa... yipee... today will be a good day!!!
Praise the Lord!!

Have to meet up with Li & shan soon!!! haven celebrate their birthday!!! Opsss.......
okay!!! Ganbatte Shirley!! You can do it!!!

Lord, I pray that You will bless me indeed, guide me in all my path and decisions, Your Hands be upon me and keep me from all evil.
Lord, You will bless my family and all my friends. Keep them safe in Your arms.
I pray for Your angels around them, watching them in all the ways!!
Keep them away from all evil!!!

Thank you Lord, amen!

Ah!

I can't imagine that it is already September!
Time files... really fast!

My dream of going to Australia this Sep... is unfulfilled due to my new career.
Have to focus on my career now.

so sad...

I wish to take a break soon... hols!! Yipeee....

I wanted to rest today! Been working hard for the past weeks.

Needed a good rest... however, i ended up doing work at home again today.

Hmm.... played basketball again last night after a long time. Playing in my dress late in the night at 12am... hahhaa..'cos i just came back from supper.. so played with a friend since the basketball is available..

Somehow, some of my clients like to pour their life stories on me. But Im glad that Im able to lighten their burden by being an listening ear. =)

Thank God for the chances to pray for them too.

Have a GREAT day today, life is beautiful!

it s amazing! I can sleep for 6 hours each day now and feel absolutely fresh the next day! Last time, i need 8 hours... anything less I will be gone the next day. (bodyache..headache) Now i can make it!! :)

I really thank God that He is pouring His blessings upon me. Its amazing too how people can just call me saying that they need my financial services! Thank God for favor and strength!

I must say that im really glad that Im making someone happy everyday!

At least one person!! Its my goal for each day!

Just finished 4 days of roadshow.. absolutely exhausted.. but still doing fine for today!

Im soaking in God's love... God is good all the times!

"So Jesus take me in Your hands, and make me in all that You want me to be.
And Jesus help me understand my purpose and what You can do through me, fulfiling my destiny!"

Amen!

LAstly, I want to add by saying that life can be great and excting if we expect it to be.
What we expect and believe will come to pass.

Choose an exciting day today!!

Jia you jia you!!!!!

It has been a long time since I last blogged. Many things happened... and my life is filled with many different feeling these days. Been feeling down and confused these days... this shouldnt be the way.. and I wanna change. At times, I would think that Im really a "lousy" person. So many shortcomings... always make people wait for me. Always so indecisive, always so sensitive...
I would really cried out to myself to CHANGE!! I hate myself sometimes... I will think the whole world hate me!

For now, the most important thing to change is to "NOT let people wait for me!"

I must be more organised. I need to plan my schedules well.

I know Im a planner.. i need to plan... but many times, i didnt plan for the day and... i will feel so terrible with myself.

Im going to spend 30 min later to plan for the month of Sep.

I cannot let trival matters affect my life.

Yes, it is a terrible feeling to wait for a person for more than 15 min.
I tried it and the feeling sucks.

When I let people wait for me when Im late for appointments... I waste their time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When Im waiting for others, I feel that way!!!!!!!!!!!

"WASTE AWAY YOUR TIME AND YOU HAVE WASTE AWAY PART OF YOUR LIVES!!!!"

Terrible Shirley!!!!!!

Lord, I repent and I pray that You will help me change!

For all my friends out there, sorry for always letting you wait.
I promise I will change!

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