It has been a long time since I last blogged. Many things happened... and my life is filled with many different feeling these days. Been feeling down and confused these days... this shouldnt be the way.. and I wanna change. At times, I would think that Im really a "lousy" person. So many shortcomings... always make people wait for me. Always so indecisive, always so sensitive...
I would really cried out to myself to CHANGE!! I hate myself sometimes... I will think the whole world hate me!

For now, the most important thing to change is to "NOT let people wait for me!"

I must be more organised. I need to plan my schedules well.

I know Im a planner.. i need to plan... but many times, i didnt plan for the day and... i will feel so terrible with myself.

Im going to spend 30 min later to plan for the month of Sep.

I cannot let trival matters affect my life.

Yes, it is a terrible feeling to wait for a person for more than 15 min.
I tried it and the feeling sucks.

When I let people wait for me when Im late for appointments... I waste their time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When Im waiting for others, I feel that way!!!!!!!!!!!

"WASTE AWAY YOUR TIME AND YOU HAVE WASTE AWAY PART OF YOUR LIVES!!!!"

Terrible Shirley!!!!!!

Lord, I repent and I pray that You will help me change!

For all my friends out there, sorry for always letting you wait.
I promise I will change!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~to be continue...............................