May 7- Saturday again! Thank God that my tender period before I leave Sonopress went smoothly. Thank God that I passed my Module 5 exam. Going to study really hard for my Module 9 exam later. Must pass in first sitting. 26 chapters... I can do it! well, today... I thought of my mom again. I think Im very strong the fact that I seldom cry or feel emotional about my mom. But nowadays, whenever I thought of her, I felt like crying again. Especially when that I'm listening to the worship Mandarin songs that I played during her funeral wake, I felt sad again. One of them, my fav. end with "Im willing to follow You all the days of my life" in Mandarin.. Ya, no matter what life may brings, I will follow YOU all the days of my life. "this is for you God" I knew that I will be sad listening to these songs.. but I still want to listen to them.. they are so nice and meaningful... and Im sure one day, when I listen to them, I won't be sad again. I remembered in "windstruck", there is this conversation... "I will not be sad, I will live my life such that when I see you in Heaven again.. Im going to tell you all the happinest moments of my life." To me, that is so beautiful, to press on and be strong because you know that you have hope to see that person again in Heaven! Alright, Its late, I shall go bath and go to library soon. Ganbatte Shirley! God bless me and all around me.....Amen!